In the most simple way possible I will describe my trip so far.
I went from Edmonton Canada to Amsterdam to Wijchen to Amsterdam to Italy to Amsterdam.
And will be going from Amsterdam to Frankfurt to Wijchen to Amsterdam to Wijchen to (I don’t know yet) to Wijchen to Amsterdam then back to Edmonton.
I think growing up has become the most apparent for me in the past two years or so though ironically I am no longer physically growing. I remember when I used to have to go to bed before all the adults and when I wasn’t allowed to do things on my own. Now I am more independent than ever and it’s the best feeling. I get to eat what I want, stay up as late as I want, travel on my own, make my own money, drive a car, I buy my own tickets to things and I spend time with the people I choose. I still have a lot of support from my family and whenever I need them I know that they will be there for me. Though knowing that I don’t need them in the same dependent way is thrilling. Not that I don’t want help, it’s just the options are there now and it’s like my eyes are really opening for the first time.
I got my hair cut a couple of days ago in Amsterdam and I realized that It was the first time in my whole life that I paid for my own haircut. This year has been full of firsts for me. My first job, my first boyfriend, my first love, my first time flying on my own, my first vacation that I organized.
It shouldn’t be shocking but It’s like through all these firsts I am becoming more and more myself.